Well I don't have really much else to post here. I've been writing a lot more stories that I just have on my FA site and I guess I don't take that much photography anymore to really post here. Oh well. It was fun while it lasted here. But time to move on!

Well things are getting better, in my case at least. Been able to get my mind back into working order. Basically going to work one night knocked me out of being depressed and angry. I'm still pissed about my dad and mom and things, but it doesn't get to me that much to affect my mind.

With that being taken care of I've been dabbling in writing as much as I can, although I've been working a lot of hours as of late to get money to pay off bills so that I can move into a new apartment with some friends. Should be interesting.

Also going to New York to see a friend, hopefully that will free up my mind next week. Really want to see him. ^_^

This is supposed to such a happy time of year and I never thought some thing could really go wrong during this time.

Christmas is supposed to be about family and friends, but this year my family has fucking screwed it up.

Last night my dad asked me about my mom from a note he saw a couple weeks ago on the dry erase board. I told him what I knew. My mother was going out every night and staying out very late. Now I'm in insomniac and don't go to bed till 2-4 in the morning, but she was coming home as the sun started to rise.

My thoughts came true.

My father made an outburst when my mom came home from work yesterday and then asked me to leave the house. I drove around thinking about life and why I shouldn't commit myself as a sacrafice to this world, the only thing stopping me was the love that some people try and show me online.

So I find that my worst fear for three weeks is true, my mother's been cheating on my dad. Now I've no idea what the fuck to do and just sit in this house, staring at my compiter screen and not being able to function my mind. I've got too many things that I want to leave this world and too many feelings to make any sense of what I want.

Yet since I'm the only one to know I've got to go through Christmas with a happy face. I've got to wear a mask around my parents during this week to make them seem like everything is okay. I've got to face family on X-mas and lie to them about how I am.

I never really worry that much, but when I do my nose bleeds. I woke up this morning and got in the shower, letting my nose drip crimson tears and watching those drops splatter as they reached the bottom.

I don't know what to do....

Taken from a bunch of other people...kehehe!



---{100 Little Things You Didn't Know About Me}---

1. Full Name: Christopher Shawn Miller
2. Nicknames: Jag, Jaggy, Kitty, Kitten
3. Age: 20
4. Place of Birth: Lewiston, ME
5. Zodiac Sign: Aries
6. Male or Female: Male
7. Grade: College Junior
8. School: University of Southern Maine
9. Occupation: Student and gas station attendant
10. Residence: Topsham, ME
11. Screen Name: falcovore

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: Black
13. Hair Length: Short, crew cut short.
14. Eye color: Hazel, which tend to alternate between a deep green and then a light brown.
15. Best Feature: My grin or eyes.
16. Height/Weight?: 5'10” and about 125 pounds
17. Braces?: Had them.
18. Glasses?: Only person in my family not to have them.
19. Piercing: Don’t need any.
20. Tattoos: None yet, may get one sooner or later.
21. Righty or Lefty: Righty

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Steven Spadaccino
23. First Award: Writing and math awards in middle school.
24. First Sport You Joined: Track and field
25. First pet: Cat named Kitty Whiskers. ^.^ RIP
26. First Real Vacation: Went to Georgia for my older brothers graduation from basic training.
27. First Concert: Scooter in Chicago.
28. First Love: Kelly Garver

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: Spaceballs
30. TV Show: Beast Wars
31. Colors: Silver, black and green.
32. Rapper: None
33. Band: Scooter
34. Song Right Now: One (Always Hardcore) by Scooter
35. Friend: Alex Gillig
36. Candy: Milky Way
37. Sport to Play: Long distance track
38. Restaurant: Any buffet!
39. Favorite brand to wear: Arizona
40. Store: Best Buy
41. School Subject: Creative Writing
42. Animal: Jaguar or any other feline, wolves and dragons
43. Book: Wereling series
44. Magazine: GamePro
45. Shoes: My regular everyday shoes

___Currently___

46. Feeling: Happy!
47. Secret: Character secret
48. Have a crush: A little bit.
49. Eating: Chicken alfredo
50. Drinking: Vanilla Coke
51. Typing: Well of course!
52. Online?: When aren’t I?
53. Listening To: “Devil You Know” by Vacationland
54. Thinking About: Writing and being yiffy
55. Wanting To: Write a school paper
56. Watching: Hercules (Disney movie)
57. Wearing: Jeans, T-shirt, socks, underwear!

__________Future__________

58. Want Kids?: Can’t…for I am the gay!
59. Want to be Married?: Possibly, would depend on how well times change in the next few years.
61. Where do you want to live: Somewhere with good friends.
62. Car: 97’ Ford Escort

__Which is Better With The Opposite/Same Sex___

63. Hair color: Doesn’t matter!
64. Hair length: Short and fuzzy. ^.^
65. Eye color: Any will do
66. Measurements: As tall if not taller then me and around 200 pounds, maybe a little more or less.
67. Cute or Sexy: Cute. ^.^
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: Hugs
70. Short or Tall: Tall
71. Easygoing or serious: Easygoing!
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Spontaneous!
73. Fatty or Skinny: Either really!
74. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: Caring
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Hesitant One, but a trouble maker at times.

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a Stranger: Nope.
79. Had Alcohol: A little bit.
80. Smoked: A few times to relax my nerves.
81. Ran Away From Home: Wanted to a few times before.
82. Broken a bone: No.
83. Got an X-ray: Nope.
84. Been with someone: Yes.
85. Broken Someones Heart: No, but they broke mine…
86. Broke Up With Someone: Never really broke up, kind or called it quits.
87. Cried When Someone Died: Yes.
88. Cried At School: Never have.

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: I believe in my Gods.
90. Miracles: Sometimes.
91. Love At First sight: Yes.
92. Ghosts: Have to see it to believe this one.
93. Aliens: There are probably other life forms out there.
94. Soul Mates: Yup.
95. Heaven: It’s possible.
96. Hell: It’s possible.
97. Angels: No.
98. Kissing on The First Date: If everything goes well.
99. Horoscopes: Little bit.

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't have?: Yes. x.x

Well got back last month from the Scooter concert, that was great. The friend I went with was the first to get into the arena where everyone would be performing, I was the third. We got seats right up at the front, although he stood for around 4-5 hours it was well worth it. The two of us can also be seen in the music video shot during the concert, although its a bit to dark to tell where we exactly are.

Anyway onto more current things, getting myself back into writing vore stories so that's a plus. Should be posting a few old ones of mine once I get them typed up, since I only used to write them on paper beforehand.

My current muse would be typing up my old work as well as taking requests from people in contests or trades, so I should be putting myself out in the open soon enough I guess.